GOD, GOD WILL GIVE HIM BLOOD TO DRINK

greatladyofscience:

(breaks into your house) can i pet your dogs

No no no n o no no NO NO NO NONO NO no nono. No

probably the second time i heard psuedothyrum song was when i thought that he might be singing about himself, and that is when i felt i could relate to it because my dad some Messed Up Things to me and my sister and that has caused a lot of emotional problems for the two of us aka severe depression and self harm and suicidal acts (this is in reference to me not my sister; she has her own issues that will not be discussed in this forum) and anyway, i always thought of my self as the victim, but in listening to that song, i thought about how my dad probably also had someone who was mean to him when he was little, how this is probably a cycle of abuse, and how i shouldn’t fully blame him for his actions, yet i should still hold him responsible. 

i am still so mad at him and he deserves it but i want to be over it. it’s holding me back. the cycle breaks here (with me, a mountain goats playlist, a sketchbook and some drawing utensils). 

Psuedothyrum Song- the Mountain Goats

This song makes me hurt in ways i don’t want to (but should) think about anymore 

I can’t wait to leave this cretinous town and move to Bloomington (birthplace of our Hero, John Darnielle) (this is not a crazed act of obsession, merely coincidence)

I’m foaming. I am punching and kicking the air. I feel small but powerful

shuckleshell:

shuckleshell:

I am curled up on my porch with this Fucking cherry vanilla diet dr pepper leave me here alone to die (and let my bug friends eat me)

I fell asleep out here and one of our neighbors called the police and told them a homeless person was sleeping on our property aka my neighbors think I am homeless and I just had a run in with the cops for falling asleep

shuckleshell:

shuckleshell:

I am curled up on my porch with this Fucking cherry vanilla diet dr pepper leave me here alone to die (and let my bug friends eat me)

I fell asleep out here and one of our neighbors called the police and told them a homeless person was sleeping on our property aka my neighbors think I am homeless and I just had a run in with the cops for falling asleep

This here album track, anyway, is called “Cry for Judas,” it is about survival but that’s kind of an oversimplification, it’s also about building a vehicle from the defeated pieces of the thing you survived and piloting that vehicle through the cosmos, it’s kind of complicated but people who know what I’m talking about will kind of intuitively get the idea and the rest of you will I hope be able to get a sense of it through the song.
John Darnielle (via oneupthewolves)

I am literally just a spider’s egg sack walking around town. Nice to meet you

shuckleshell:

I am curled up on my porch with this Fucking cherry vanilla diet dr pepper leave me here alone to die (and let my bug friends eat me)

shuckleshell:

I am curled up on my porch with this Fucking cherry vanilla diet dr pepper leave me here alone to die (and let my bug friends eat me)

Terriermon - Digimon